Oh shit she talks about love again
I know right. It sucks big time. I wish I was someone like really girly or something but im sure that imma hate myself for being that skanky.
So anyways, last night as usual i had this really vivid dream. I felt every movement i made. Its like my dreams are teaching me things.
Last night i dreamt of kissing my all time crush (i know this is so highschool, but fuck that. Im still inlove with him). It was awesome. I felt the emotion, the feeling. I mean really, i felt like it was really real. I felt the softness of the kiss, me breathing inside his mouth. Fuck this shit.
I can’t take it anymore. But im pretty sure, Im gonna marry that guy. I bet.
How come when people get drunk they don’t remember anything?
And how come i get red easily?
Am i allergic to alcohol?
Nooooo! i can’t be allergic to alcohol.
Alcohol is the best drink made in the world.
I just need to train mi self so that i most get easily drunk. I like it when im sober, makes you think stupid things. I dont like it when im drunk cuz it makes me to stupid things and in the end, i wont remember a think. Ok stupid post.
Oh yeahhh, so last last week i was stoned and started typing nonsense in my phone. So here are all the nonsense:
Wall of lights. Trike of noisy feet. Thats how i feel. Dropping him down a hill. I feel nothing but an irritating sound. Mouth Dry. Sound gets clearer and i don’t remember what happened.
Eyes wide shut. Brother is bothered. Its the best feeling. I am worried. Brother is old. Brother is high. Brother cant do a thing cuz its traffic. People waking up and we are about to rest. My brother has a wedding to attend later and its already 5am. No sleep no need to worry. Mother just called and we need to get home. All things may cause karma. Life aint a bitch but construct ourselves to be a bitch. Life is cool and u may go with the flow.
i wish i had patience in reading.
Warning: Cheesy post.
I was randomly looking around my files then saw a file named Dreams. I opened it then saw this. As I said, its cheesy but upon reading it, you will feel the emotion.
So here goes..
It felt like seeing him for the very first time, the perfect guy. To fall in love again, to smile again. Our eyes meet, butterflies flying with rage around my stomach. You, smiling awkwardly. Your smile. I smiled. Trying to hide it but I just cant. Then the kiss, our first real kiss. Your jaw halts, frightened as our lips combined. The emotions, bitter and sweet. Our eyes can’t help but stare. Your heart thumping hard, really hard. Everything felt real. But then, as I blink, im in a different world, then i forget everything, even his face.
Sigh. What dreams can do to our emotions. Very strong. Very real. But then, suddenly it all shatters and becomes a forgotten dream.
I just don’t get it sometimes. A while ago I was happy and now, I’m pretty sure that, my life is fucked up. What a mess.